Tuesday, August 12, 2014

EDIT THIS: Healing within the Rise of the Feminine


One of Don Miguel Ruiz's Four Agreements is:
Don't take anything personally ....



I came across this article written in 1976 : Trashing: The Dark Side of Sisterhood ... http://www.jofreeman.com/joreen/trashing.htm

.... while am not a feminist, Joreen gets to the nitty gritty of the sabotaging that women do to each other, in particular attacking the character of a person rather than being able to engage in whatever the disagreement is, with the message ...

or as i say it, the inability to follow the Spirit/prayer, not the person.

We have ideological fantasies about what the "ideal" is of what the "face of compassion and love" "should" be.  We are trained to look at the most visible in media for these images of ourselves. Nor do we really innerstand the great preciousness of what privacy is when becoming "visible" meets the energetic onslaught of who and what people Think you are. 

There are two sides of compassion, the soft smooth side, and the one that smacks you in the ass. My grandmas have a look, that say a thousand words, to let me know that i need to take responsibility for my healing, and to ask for help, instead of blaming everyone else. 

Nez Pierce - google search

There is a lot that is coming to the surface to heal during these times of the Rise of the Feminine. Sometimes i see the feminine like Wolf Medicine, on the one hand loyal fierce love maintaining the tapestry of the cultural cura of self, family and tribe... on the other, instinctually stalking the roots of that which hinders healthy growth. 

"But what if you, being a swan, had to pretend you were a mouse? What if you had to pretend to be gray and furry and tiny? What you had no long snaky tail to carry in the air on tail-carrying day? What if wherever you went you tried to walk like a mouse, but you waddled instead? What if you tried to talk like a mouse, but instead out came a honk every time? Wouldn't you be the most miserable creature in the world?"― Clarissa Pinkola EstésWomen Who Run With the Wolves: Myths and Stories of the Wild Woman Archetype

“Be wild; that is how to clear the river. The river does not flow in polluted, we manage that. The river does not dry up, we block it. If we want to allow it its freedom, we have to allow our ideational lives to be let loose, to stream, letting anything come, initially censoring nothing. That is creative life. It is made up of divine paradox. To create one must be willing to be stone stupid, to sit upon a throne on top of a jackass and spill rubies from one’s mouth. Then the river will flow, then we can stand in the stream of it raining down.” 
― Clarissa Pinkola EstésWomen Who Run With The Wolves: Contacting the Power of the Wild Woman

With gratitude for our grandmothers and sisters, who do not have words for "give up", who have given us both the Gramma look, and always said, "keep on going, don't stop talking and sharing, we need all the help we can get, stand up, you do not have to carry someone else's bag, nor transmute their stuff anymore". 
With gratitude that they are always seeing, feeling and thinking of us in positive beautiful ways, even when we are in the beautiful and sometimes painful process of re-wilding ourselves.

photo by strangefarmer.com



Have good day...
Alis- All Life is Sacred
Itlatol- Life's Voice, Song and Wise story



Friday, August 1, 2014

Danza de la Mariposa




One reason I like John Trudell is that he prefaces his presentations with, "call me crazy" … am going to give us that "out" here too… call me crazy in my Dance with the Law of Nature, some call Quantum… however consider that the we are made of All That Is. Visions and Dreams....what we think, feel, say and do, what or how we perceive, becomes our reality.

Elders have said that there will come a time when the old ceremonies will be put down, for we will be entering a New World….

We are made of All That Is, which has memory and consciousness. Our Galaxy was created 8 billion yrs ago ...and we are made of this. Our galaxy was birthed from the Cosmic Womb, and we are made of this. All Tribes, Cultures and Languages, came from this "place"of knowing, this relationship with All That Is. Therefore this notion that we are separated by degrees of genetics, language, religion ...whatever,.... becomes irrelevant. We are the living sentient energy made from All That Is. Some call this the Oneness, Mitakuye Oyasin, Enlightenment, the Sacred Dreaming of Creationing .... i don't know what this is, this is what this is.

The Ancestors shared this Vision/information of the Danza de la Mariposa last Fall with me and my ceremonial sister when we were in a prayer meditation together. As of august 2013 this information was nothing new, it already exists in one form or another, yet not collectively in a Dance/Ceremony, that i know of. In the next blog: Seeding the Vision of Danza de la Mariposa,  August 2014 will share some experiences regarding what took place, and with whom.

Prior to this vision, we are collectively coming to innerstand that through ceremony 24/7, 365, somewhere all over mother earth - with every breath, thought, feeling and action, the resonance and tonality, and collective consciousness can be raised to the point that all harmful machines, can come to a screeching halt, - they just will not function… 
The heartbeat of mother earth will even be able to be heard by people living in places like NYC, and they will stop, look, listen and realize we no longer have to live like slaves… 

The Dance:
The message is balance, yin/yang, like Mother Earth's Marriage with Father Sun, Grandmother Moon and Cosmos. All of our Prophecy teachings worldwide have spoken of this time coming, when the feminine energy will rise. We already know that the extreme of one or the other leads to the same place, away from the Center. Balance within first - healing our inner feminine and masculine relationship and the Dance of Creation, in how we are all made whole and perfectly Beautiful. Leaving the realms of matrixes of hierarchies, religions and dogmatic realities.

For almost a year in the flow with Spirit to learn more about 
what this Vision is showing:
Please notice the center lines of this Celtic symbol 


For the Celts the Meaning of the Celtic Knots around the Tree of Life may vary according to family, region, bloodline, era, and family crest…a knot made with a continuous line evokes Eternity. Notice the Galactic Butterfly knot within the Four Direction Medicine Wheel shown below:





this symbol is also seen as
the Hunab - Ku ( Galactic Butterfly) as shown in how it was painted to show you, see dimensionally not flat-linear ( see above painting)

the Enchanted Flower of the Mayan woman's Moondance which was shared by Mayan Grandmother Magdala Ramirez this Spring, 2014 in AZ ... she refers to this as the "union of polarities", the portal to the 5th realm or Dimension of the Enchanted Flower,

the Tibetan Heart of the Lotus Sutra
this is the lotus blossom of enlightenment

i have seen this symbol in certain ways dancers dance the Medicine Wheel in the Lakota Sun Dance, when Jon Fastwolf turned the wheel to each direction, during the dance of each day's dance rounds.

For the West Africans

“knot of pacification/reconciliation”

symbol of reconciliation, peacemaking and pacification Mpatapo represents the bond or knot that binds
parties in a dispute to a peaceful, harmonious reconciliation. It is a symbol
of peacemaking after strife.  http://www.siliconafrica.com/african-symbols-for-creative-design/


and,  the "discovery" of golden "orbs" or eggs within the underground chambers the Temple of Quetzalcoatl, Teotihuacan, which is located near the Butterfly Plaza, indicates the reverence and innerstanding of the Butterfly.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2318151/Mystery-glowing-orbs-discovered-Temple-Feathered-Serpent-Mexico.html


or the Hopi Polonghoya and Pokanghoya, gaurdians of the north and south poles of Mother Earth's energies ...and their relationship at the equatorial zone. When we have had pole shifts before, Mother Earth's center disc turns or rather it is the spiraling of the taurus. The Butterfly Dance although not done in a circle formation, is an integral part of the ceremonial Life Ways for all the Pueblos in the Southwest of Turtle Island.

Today, Sept. 4th, 2014 i found this image:
site Re: Feminine Peace Knowledge - Ring of Power 

Sept 20th
Huichol Art
Indigo Art Gallery


knowledge quotes and image by Mayan Daykeeper
Mark Borcherding

We can see now that this "symbol" is ancestral, we are made of this relationship, we are this, and this is us.

What i experience when meditating with this vision, is at the center of Mother Earth, and Cosmos, like a disc ...egg...of dancing creation energy, like the Milk and Honey Galaxy.

The outer blue and red waves of the image i painted, are the Serpent, red and blue for mas/fem , above/below, positive ions/negative ions, red-road/blue/road 
(where these 2 roads meet at the center of the medicine wheel is the Tree of Life, Home, Mitakuye Oyasin, Enlightenment, etc… and this is where we are Being within, with the Truth for All Life, for the future generations, for the One Great Peace to be Realized ...this Balance or marriage, or unity-union)

At the center is the Hunab-Ku, is that same as i stated above - energy - the marriage between Mother Earth and Father Sun/Sky, this is where the portal opens that we experience when we dance. When we dance from this within and in human form, we move what is within "the unseen" ...and birth it into physical form of "reality" the seen world of Ma- Matter. This is literally one of the formations that the dancers dance, as well as the red and blue Serpent. This womb portal, is within woman's womb, the mother earth, the milk and honey galaxy, it is the marriage of the energies to birth life… this energy is the cosmic womb. We are the seed, flower, fruit and Tree of Life.

There are 12 eggs or seeds, the 13th Egg is this alchemy of the Whole, 
The 12 eggs also represent the "Altar offering" of what the Ancestors showed to put around the Tree of Life, at the center of where the Hunab-Ku is.
The 13 eggs also represent our 13 Moons, and the return of harmonious relationship with time/space.
The Ancestors showed an Altar around a living Tree, not one that had to give it's life, the time of "sacrificial suffering is over", "we plant the seed and tree of life, because we are this"
The Altar has water, flowers, incensor with burning medicines, and seeds...
Representing of the teachings of sacred geometry and All of the original instructions that lead to this same place, All Peoples, All Traditions.
I painted Strawberry plant to represent this, because this is 
Mohawk Medicine of Love, medicine for the heart.

The Brown represents our Earth Mother, all peoples, Ma - matter, all life forms
the Light Blue water of both Earth and Sky, and the color of Spirit, the Spiritual Road we are walking and living now.

The Hummingbird, represents 
our Ancestors (we are the ancestors, now, we are the future generations)
Hummingbird is the Day energy, of the Jaguar of the Night energy, it changes form by day or night … it is high magik
The hummingbird is the fastest bird helpers to carry prayers to Creationing.
Hummingbird is Joy/Bliss/Peace/Happiness  - means your prayers have been answered.

The little infinity in the Hummingbird's Path…. 
The 3 pairs are , Feminine & Masculine Spirit Beings, Mother & Father,
Girl & Boy, they dance in the infinity, eternal life pattern. 

When the portal or activation of this dance takes place, the ripple is flowering beauty all over Mother Earth as represented by the outer ring of flowers around the red and blue serpent and the plant vine, and the green color.

Who is the Butterfly?
the Butterfly is the only species i know of that changes genetically when it metamorphoses.
All aspects of the medicine wheel can be related to the cycles of the Butterfly, 
for example:
egg- child, spring, Birth
caterpiller-youth summer
chrysalis-adult, fall…. humanity and mother earth is at the end of this stage
butterfly-elder, winter, - returns to seed/egg, to Birth 
 ~ the New World ?
* Today even the children that are being born are ancient souls ...

DAYS of the Dance: are to be danced during both Night and Day.
By the mayan calendar and the Hopi we have lived 4 worlds, this is the time of the eagle/condor, hopi, 7th fire, end of the kaliyuga, the Law of the One Great Peace, the 5th Sun.

We know that in each prior world Mother Earth's eco-system has changed. 
We have creation teachings and instructions for the end and entering into each prior world or cycle of life. 

Our esteemed Elders, shared for decades to get everyone to agree that december 21, 2012 we would be in the 5th Sun, the feminine will rise…etc..

The New Sun is here …. We have yet to fully Realize the 5th World…why? 
Maybe because it is the Feminine Principle of Creation, Feminine Energy, Consciousness and Wise that is necessary to  BIRTH this World/culture/consciousness we all agree on….because we need the balance of  Feminine and Masculine Energy to do so….

Mother Earth will Birth, as the women birth the Culture of the One Great Peace, and dreamseed the Creation teachings from the 4th world to the Fifth World…

Yes there will be a purification, because this is the way of Healing.

Humanity are specks of sand, Mother Earth is Great, and the Galaxy greater, and the Womb of Creationing from whence all came Vast and infinite…..
we like spectrums of consciousness of Mitakuye Oyasin.

My perspective on "climate change" is different. The western idea is that we are creating this change by our pollution. No, our pollution is effecting healthy eco-system for birth. Mother Earth and Father Sun will purify, in the same way we purify in the sweat lodge…and this is why she needs all of her waters to become her embryonic fluid….
We are at an end and beginning of the next cycle, Mother has had four prior worlds, she will birth the 5th world. We are are also of this "change", Birth.
The New Sun is here, we have yet to fully birth with the New World.

Form, Ma, Matter is birthed from the Sacred Dreamseed from the Womb of Creationing.

We are made like this.

So do we want to sing, dance, pray, create Tribes of One humanity,  and Dreamseed into Reality the 5th World…like midwives?

Anything is possible….

Thank you for your sacred time to listen.
A.M. ~ 2014

Addendum:

Hunab Ku: One Giver of Movement and Measure"
J.M.Jenkins finally settled the matter, when he found the rectangular design in the Codex 
Magliabecchiano, published in 1903, with a commentary by Zelia Nuttall, which is an Aztec document 
and dates from some time before 1601.Hoopes went on to find that the codex shows variations of the 
rectangular design, and says they are "mantas" - mantles or ritual cloaks that were used in festivals - in 
particular, the festival of lip plugs. The word for lip plug was originally mistranslated as spider water, 
which is given in the caption. This is how the symbol {GB} appeared in the 16th century Codex 

Magliabecchiano

I was recently told that the focus needs to be ONLY on the women to heal, so that they no longer acquiesce their "power" to the masculine/men.
- that all women should cease supporting or participating in men's ceremonies, and in particular the Sun Dance, and should ONLY do Moon Dance
-that if we cease all support and participation on any level with men, the men will follow the women
-that anything that the women/feminine share with the men, will be stolen, controlled and dominated by the men
- men told me they are afraid the women will take over "their" Sundance

As for my Self, the me, you and i ...am not in this for regime change. Our children, we - us, find Peace within ourselves. We dance the dance of balance and harmony with these energies of Creationing.
When we heal ~ we heal, past, present and future. Whatever we ask/pray for we will receive. This is a natural Law of Creationing. It is time now for us to Be with Peace, Love and Truth. We are now re-membering, learning to dance in balance and harmony again. 

If you speak with Sundance Grandmothers of which some of the Dance bundles are caregiven, the Sundance came from the Women, through the feminine, they were the first dancers, it is the Grandmothers who choose who are the men leaders of some of the Sundances ... not all Sundances are like this. These Sundances are very balanced, and whatever fear, ostracization or wounding women have received from the imbalanced ones, needs to be healed, within us. The Sundance is not for "men only".  Men nor anyone, do not own the living life and medicine of the Sundance, nor women the Moondance - We are in Service, to live and walk the Sacred Teachings and Life Ways to the best of our ability. For the Lakota, the Ghost Dance or Moon/Night Dance is for all genders. And will note here that the Lakota have a reverence and role for Two Spirit People during ceremony and within their cultural Life Ways.

When women choose to re-member and learn through our ancestral teachings of the Moondance, Moonlodge, Rites of Passage into Womanhood and the Wise ways of our Mother years, and participate in sequestration from the men,...we re-member how to live in collaboration and cooperation with our sisters, and let go of colonially masculinized competitiveness, jealousy, depression, apathy, fear and rage, that are symptoms of the grief and pain longing to be healed. With deeper innerstanding we then are able to raise our sons with the knowledge that comes from the feminine and masculine, so that the future generations are living harmoniously together. 

The Danza de la Mariposa is neither the Moon, nor the Sun dance...it is parts of both, and more ~ am only a messenger ... maybe this dance will be seen in the 5th world that will be born, or when women and men, and two-spirited ( the first 3 tribes) decide they want to dance together for the birth of the 5th world. Regardless of what humans do, there will be a Mother Earth Spring, she will birth,
her skin will move, as Jacob Waiwatie explains this movement here : http://youtu.be/u88mfQIhTig
and the water and air will be clean again.
What are we Dreamseeding? Stay true to Mother Earth, we are all her children.

Should anyone choose to join in meditating with this symbol, and sees more information... please share.
Woplia Tanka, 
Tok'sa




Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Grandmother Moon, the Waters of Life, Coyote and the Marriage Renewal Ceremony

Grandmother Moon, Coyote and 
the Marriage Renewal Ceremony
Between Mother Earth and Father Sun

photo by A. Mondragon

There was a time when people in all their selfishness forgot to feed Grandmother Moon and she became very skinny. They forgot about how she nurtured seeds into blossoming and cared for the rhythm and the flow of Water and the cycles and seasons of Life. The people forgot that Grandmother Moon gave the caregiving of Life's Cycle's rhythm and resonance inside of women. The people had forgotten that she is Grandmother to Mother Earth and Father Sun, caring for a very special harmony and love between them. The people forgot that she was there when Earth and Sun were born and was midwife for each of their 4 worlds and their children to be born. With people's selfishness they tried to control her cycles and seasons, they polluted and abused water and no longer planted seeds or had children with her blessings. Grandmother Moon was concerned about the people's forgetting because the time was near for a New 5th World to be born from the marriage between Mother Earth and Father Sun.

So one night Grandmother Moon asked Coyote Oldman to help prepare for the marriage renewal between Mother Earth and Father Sun so that people would remember her teachings and come to the ceremony. Coyote Oldman was delighted and honored by the invitation to gather gifts for this wonderful occasion. With his acceptance of the invitation Grandmother Moon gave Coyote Oldman a pouch with tobacco to offer when asking others if they would like to share something for the marriage renewal between Mother Earth and Father Sun. 

Coyote ran up the mountains to Birch Woman's home and lay some tobacco at her roots.  "Birch Woman would you make a basket for the great marriage renewal ceremony of Mother Earth and Father Sun?"  Birch Woman rustled and swayed, uncoiling long wide ribbons of skin, and then asked the winds to weave the basket. The basket looked like a big oval canoe. Coyote Old Man was delighted, thanked Birch Woman, and then balancing the Birch Bark Canoe on his head and tail, headed down the mountain to Oldman Cedar.

Coyote lay some tobacco at Cedar's roots. "Oldman Cedar, will you share a gift to Mother Earth and Father Sun for their marriage renewal ceremony?" Coyote Oldman asked.
Oldman Cedar's leaf tufts fluttered and fell into the Birch Bark Canoe making a fragrant soft lining. "Thank you very much !" Coyote Oldman said smiling.

Feeling good about his preparations Coyote Oldman headed toward Standing Stones. Coyote came to the gathering of the tall Standing Stones and lay the Birch Bark Canoe down before talking to them.

photo by A. Mondragon

 "Oh Ancient Ones, it is me, Coyote. Would you like to share a gift to Mother Earth and Father Sun for their marriage renewal ceremony?" Coyote said, as he lay tobacco upon their feet.
There was a low deep moving rumble, and then seven round stones rolled out from within the Standing Stones and came to rest at Coyote Oldman's paws. Coyote thanked the Standing Stones, and thanked each round stone as he placed them carefully in a seven direction pattern at the center of the Birch Bark Canoe. 

Coyote Oldman once again carefully lifted and balanced the Birch Bark Canoe on his head and tail and then went to Meadow's Lake. Meadow's Lake lush, grass, fur, swayed and danced as Coyote Oldman approached sprinkling the tobacco offering. "Meadow's Lake, you are so calm and peaceful, i am on a journey to prepare for Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony. Would you like to share a gift for this great occasion?"
Meadow's Lake rhythmically rippled weaving sweet fragrant grass braids along her shore. Coyote Oldman gathered them, and placed them in rows at the back of the Birch Bark Canoe. "Thank you Meadow's Lake" Coyote said, and again balanced the Birch Bark Canoe on this head and tail.

The Birch Bark Canoe was getting heavier for Coyote, so he went down the ravine to Mountain River Woman. Coyote lay the Birch Bark Canoe on the riverside and gave a tobacco offering to river. "Greetings Mountain River Woman, will you share a gift to Mother Earth and Father Sun for their marriage renewal ceremony?"
Mountain River Woman's eyes twinkled as she sang and flow-weaved a song of a Waterbird that flew to the front of the Birch Bark Canoe. Coyote Oldman thanked her, and said, " Mountain River Woman, the Birch Bark Canoe is getting heavier for this Oldman, would you take me and the canoe to Grandmother Ocean?" Mountain River Woman agreed to help Coyote with bubbling laughter.

l-ross-gallery.com

Coyote Oldman carefully slid the Birch Bark Canoe into the river and leaped in. Mountain River Woman flowed slowly, meandering this way and that toward a far off horizon where Grandmother Ocean was beyond. The combination of river's flow and the fragrance of the cedar and sweetgrass soon put Coyote into a dream that turned into a path of stars and swirling rainbows spiraling within the Milk and Honey Galaxy. Coyote danced joyfully from star to star, dressed in a dark purple robe and a cap made from his favorite turquoise bandana. "wow!" Coyote Oldman said, happily sprinkling tobacco here and there on rays of starlight, "Starlight, starlight, would you like to share a gift for Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony?" 

Fireflies fluttered out from the starlight rays and gathered like drops of dew on Coyote's robe. Then Coyote jumped and floated on Moon's glistening petals of light that came to lay softly on  Grandmother Ocean. Splash ! Salty sweet drops of water awoke Coyote. Coyote sat up in the Birch Bark Canoe and looked around and was going to wipe the water off his face and instead found that fireflies were resting on his fur. The canoe was rocking gently with Grandmother Ocean as a Dolphin laughed and nudged the canoe. Coyote Oldman looked at Dolphin, wanting to shake his coat like a wet dog, but didn't and instead gave a pinch of tobacco in the direction of Dolphin. "Heya Dolphin, really good to see you. I'm helping prepare for Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony…. ummmm, i need some help, or rather would you like to share a gift to them?" Dolphin laughed and splashed Coyote again, then went for a long dive. Coyote really wanted to shake and roll now that he was covered with firefly starlight and ocean's waterdrops. 

As Coyote sat in the Birch Bark Canoe, he realized that he was in the middle of Grandmother Ocean, with no paddle, not sure where home is, covered in salty-sweet water and starlight fireflies …. aaannnnd the thought that he may not get back by morning for the marriage between Mother Earth and Father Sun began to caw like a hunger in his belly.

Dolphin emerged from Grandmother Ocean, tossed a Conch shell into the canoe, and laughed. "Thank you Dolphin", Coyote said a bit forlorn, and Dolphin went on another dive before Coyote could say another word. Coyote Oldman, sat in the rocking canoe looking at the Conch shell. Hmmm Coyote thought about his situation, and then he asked the Firefly Starlight if they would live in the conch shell just until the marriage renewal ceremony. The Firefly Starlight  spiraled off of Coyote's fur and filled the conch shell. 

photo by Kathrin Bacher of a Thailand Dolphin bringing up a conch shell

Then Coyote began rather slowly, "Thank you, all of you, thank you, for sharing your gifts for the marriage renewal between Mother Earth and Father Sun. However, am not too sure about where we are, or how to get to the ceremony from here." None of the gifts responded, so Coyote sat in the Birch Bark Canoe swaying and bobbing with Grandmother Ocean. Coyote took out the pouch that Grandmother Moon gave him and saw that there was not very much tobacco left inside. He took a small pinch and held it, thinking about what he would say on his behalf to Grandmother Ocean.  

"Grandmother Ocean" Coyote Oldman began, " please hear me, am giving you this offering of tobacco. Please make your waters take us to the shores of Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony".  Grandmother Ocean did not respond to Coyote, as she had begun to swell and pulse dance in her long curling shawl of oceanwave foam. Coyote now more concerned decided on a more challenging request. 

He took another small pinch of the remaining tobacco and offered the tobacco to the Winds. "Hear me Winds, this is Coyote Oldman,  will you share your winds for Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony?"  and then added 
" and blow me and our gifts to the ceremony?"

A warm firm breeze slowly rose, raising and stretching Grandmother Ocean's swells into vast round mountains. "Uh oh", Coyote thought as mountains and valleys of Ocean grew far and wide. He looked inside the small tobacco bag, only a pinch and a few morsels of tobacco remained. Coyote decided to lean over the side of the canoe and paddle with his paws …which only made his stomach caw and his mouth dry. Coyote sat back in the canoe feeling woozy as Grandmother Ocean's valleys were now so deep that he could only see a small window of the night sky. 
Feeling lost and hungry in the vast ocean beneath the sky Coyote had one last pinch of tobacco to offer. 

" Oh Grandmother Moon, Grandmother Moon, 
am now skinny like you, 
so here is the last of the tobacco 
am offering to you
and for me
to help the gifts get to the ceremony." Coyote said as the last pinch of the tobacco drifted from his paw. 
Coyote sat in the canoe still and quiet, waiting, watching, as Grandmother Moon's belly began to swell. As she grew bigger and rounder, Grandmother Ocean stretched and grew and grew until Coyote, the Birch Bark Canoe and the gifts were on top of a big Ocean Mountain that touched the Sky. Coyote could now see lavender and the first glimmer of the Morning Star that welcome the coming of Father Sun, yet there was no earth to be seen.
"Oh Grandmother Moon, Grandmother Moon" Coyote cried out as Grandmother Moon gave Ocean a huge swell and wave to the great Ocean Mountain, tossing Coyote the Canoe and all the gifts high into the night Sky. 

ocean by freeslideshow.com

Around and around, upside down, out and in, they all went. Everything went dark. Coyote could not see anything and felt cold, hungry and lonely. "Well maybe i have died." thought Coyote and he felt around for the small tobacco bag Grandmother Moon had given him.  He opened it carefully hoping that the few morsels of tobacco had not fallen out in the tossing of the canoe.  He tapped the bag loosing the last few morsels of tobacco into his paw. Closing his fingers around the tobacco and holding it to his heart, he said, "Oh sacred gifts that have been offered for Mother Earth and Father Sun's marriage renewal ceremony, here we are together. This old Coyote can't get to the ceremony alone, however maybe together we will find a way there." He opened his hand and let the few morsels of tobacco fall with gratitude for life, from his paw.

"Firefly Starlight bless us with your warmth and light !" Coyote sang out. The Fireflies spiraled out of the conch shell and swirled around. Coyote could now see the Stones in front of him. The Stones gave a low hum inviting the Firefly Starlight to join them. The Stones and Firefly Starlight began to glow and become hot. Where the Stones touched the Cedar a smoke began to rise filling the whole canoe with billowy clouds of smoke. Coyote picked up the Conch shell and blew it four times. The first time he blew to the west, and the cedar smoke turned into rainclouds , the second time he blew to the north and the sweetgrass turned into seven ancient ones glistening in the sky, the third time he blew to the east and the Waterbird sang, the fourth time he blew to the south … raindrops fell on the stones creating a great billowing cloud and lightning flashed from Waterbird's song and rhythmically thundered in coyote's heart. Then a great burst of of blue white light created a rainbow …. whoosh ….a doorway opened.

"Lelelele, welcome home Coyote Oldman!" 

Coyote crawled out from the upside down and turned around mouth of the canoe, stood up, and smiled at all of his relatives. The morning Sun began to bathe  Mother Earth and warm ribbons of green blossomed. Stones peered out from the bubbling stream and white billowing clouds danced in the turquoise sky where Grandmother Moon in her fullness could be seen even in the new day's light. A Tree laden with multicolored flowers stood in the center of the meadow surrounded by Cedar and Birch Trees. Coyote joined the big circle of his relatives singing, drumming and dancing the Waterbird song for the renewal of the marriage between Mother Earth and Father Sun.
~*~
May we remember that love, gratitude, generosity and our life ways are born with the heartbeat and rhythm with All Life. 
May we remember that the first water drum Creationing made is our Womb/Hara.

Louie Gonnie - Water, the Rain and the Oceans of Time

~*~

Elementals of this story:
The following are my meanings to the elements of this story that have come with gratitude for living life, ceremony, listening and being with, the natural world... for All Life has voice, song and teachings to share with us. May you nourish your relationship with the natural world medicines that bring you joy, health and harmony with All Life.

Water is our first Medicine. Water is the caregiving, energizing and resonating element of prayers, feelings, dreams and visions. What we think, feel and how we relate with water resonates within and all around us. We are made of water, birthed from water and can not live without water, this is why we love, respect and caregive Water of Life. All of our songs and prayers permeate and continuously travel within water's cycle of life and forms, everywhere.
The Conch shell spirals like life and Conch's sound calls forth from the seen and unseen, and awakens our pineal gland, which is the receptor of being able to perceive life from an illuminated state of Being. The Conch energizes the resonance of the Breath of Life.
Dolphin journeys with joy deep within the realms of knowing and intuition.
Plant Medicines interconnect our roots with Mother Earth and Father Sky.
Sweetgrass is the medicine calling forth and offering to our ancestors and interconnects us with past, present and future simultaneously.
Cedar sends our present prayers to Creationing, and is healing medicine.
Tobacco is an offering to the spirit within all life forms. We never take without giving, or take more than we need. This is a balance that is to be respected. We also ask to enter and acknowledge where we are and who lives wherever we are…be whom is the forest, waters, plains, mountains etc... 
Birds are our prayer messengers, they fly between earth and sky, between the seen and unseen worlds. The Waterbird caregives our prayers of wise ways, protection, blessings, healing forgiveness and gratitude. They are also guardians of lightning, thunders and rain. In the southwest Rain comes to say our prayers have been heard and answered.
Fireflies are one of the "little people" or guardians of the spark, flame and spirit of fire and starlight. They give illumination to one's journey and are made from Stars.  Long ago the first firekeepers, were women Fireflies who made small pottery traveling houses to carry coals and sparks in them, to start the family fires wherever they traveled to.
Coyote is a trixster, helper and reminds us that humor is a great healer and teacher.
Rainbows are blessings of Joy, Peace, Beauty and Harmony

Thank you for listening.
A.M. July 2014
coyote in a canoe by wikipedia

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Taosenos..... Agua de Vida y Milagros

Dear Taosenos,
Water is Life

Is it time that we respect our ancestors and those that are the original caregivers of these lands and Water…Taos Pueblo....  Hmmm, Taos Pueblo for some reason agreed to the recent Abeyta Settlement "plan". Is it time that we hear from Elders and children about our Water of Life, "progress" and deals being made on behalf of the next seven generations? Is it time for us all to be included in decisions about Water, and the perceived notion that Water can be owned and privatized, is contrary to Water being a birth-right we all share ~ 
for without water, there is no life.

This article may foretell what will happen here if we are not active participants in matters regarding land and water. Are the wells the El Prado Water Association wants to drill any different than the dams talked about in this article? Not really when you innerstand that with the drought, the aquifer is not recharging as it once did, and more wells further disrupt the natural water cycle.  http://waterandpeace.wordpress.com/2014/06/04/jon-m-fox-hiak-vatwe-yaqui-river-rio-yaqui/  And why is the El Prado Water Association on the County water advisory board, when they are the ones who will profit from the privatization of water? This is not a conflict of interest for the EPWA financial pockets, however it is to the poor gentes that will be paying for the privatization, for generations to come. 

Or maybe with wells that will run dry, we will have a mass exodus of people…and to keep the Town and Casino afloat, the new airport runway can be subsidized by the military's northern New Mexico training grounds, and the rich and famous visiting Taos Ski Valley… ? Ugh! What else is possible? 

"Progress": We now have 30+K people who live in Taos Pueblo, the Town of Taos and  County. We are no longer food and energy sovran. Without food, water and energy sovranty we are not free. Please read the prior sentence again.  Some of our best agricultural lands lay fallow. Instead of leasing the lands ( for a nominal cost or barter trade ) to those that would care and grow food, horses, sheep or cattle, for the health of our community, these lands may loose their water rights ( under the use it or loose it water clause ) and be subject to higher taxes, or sold off to developers.

Why don't we have a moratorium on building until we are food, water and energy sovran again? Progress as usual is a capitalist idea that no longer serves the greater good of All People or Mother Earth….Those that have and continue to get rich off of selling water, development, gated communities, buying and selling real-estate, building more homes, business complexes, etc … could be solarizing wells and converting current homes and building greenhouses throughout the county… starting with those that are the least able to do so. Would that be too much generosity? have we forgotten that we are only as healthy as the least fortunate…and what it means for a village to raise a child? 
If we are willing to go in debt to the County for a new Jail House, you'd think that food, water, energy and educational cultural sovranty would also be at the top of the list…

Is the village memory of being able to ride our horses and hitch them in town fading in the sunset of the metered rental spaces to park our cars? Is it fading with the Taos Ski Valley's fantasy to become a little Vail catering to the rich and this Vail Dream will somehow trickle down to the Town? Seriously, we have not seen great tourism sales in a long time.  Is the cultura cura fading with progress and the government corprotocracy,  treaties, laws and regs of the capitalist mentality that comes with it? Please innerstand this, treaties have been broken time and time again by the US government and it's corporations. And their agency laws and regulations are continually manipulated to serve profits over people … until the People rise again  ~ and get the spirit like Mora has.

All this said… this is an opportunity for Taosenos to stand up in unity for our water of life and lifeways we love, or loose them. Or maybe the current sub-urbanite sprawl that is taking over the county will run dry, leaving only the few along the Rios to survive. 

What else is possible?
Maybe it's time we ALL learn to Rain Dance.  
Am seriously praying for a miracle here ~ 
That we re-member the sacred nature of water, and to Rain Dance again …
this just may bring UNITY, healing and a sense of cultural gratitude for everyone who has chosen Taos as their Home and community. 

… thanks for listening.

Here is a compilation of recent articles of interest: 
La Jicarita has some of the best writers regarding the Abeyta and Aamodt Settlements: http://lajicarita.wordpress.com/

Taos News My Turn, Taos contributors: 
Taos County reshapes water advisory board 
Who will and will not benefit from the airport
Our land is worth more than that
Loosing Ag status
LaLama water supply o thin Ice

Meanwhile frackers circle Chaco Canyon. 

Is nothing sacred? have you ever heard of the mysterious sink holes?

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Innocence, Courage or Judgement, Humor and Poetry Notes



We are always blessed to have young children in our ceremonies for they bring innocence and pure awareness in how they are naturally made beautiful.
As one species inner connected to all life, we have lost our innocence, and may seek to know this again.

Today i hear lots of people say,  " no judgement, it's all good". Yet, we make judgements everyday… from what we choose to eat, what to buy, what to sell, what to believe, what our spiritual practice is or is not, who to vote for, work for,  …and the list goes on. We even make a judgement some call "choice", to be conscious of the power of our words that comes from the Breath of Life through us, we make judgements or choices to become "mindful" about how we speak.

Some have been taught that "Power" or energy is a bad thing, simply because there is so much abuse of power in the world, or that it was mis-used to abuse and oppress women and children, people of color, and ravage mother earth. Some have been taught not to seek to know power, because humility is better or more altruistic. Some even mistake lack of self esteem for humility, when lack of self esteem comes from being abused. Let us not fool ourselves into thinking that we have no life power to create beauty with each other and Mother Earth. To wake up however, we may be faced with the stark Truth about who we are and how we behave with the power or lack of, we have as a species.

We are born with power, the power of life, the power to THINK, FEEL and make healthy decisions - judgements, for our selves and our families, communities and for any other endeavor we choose to do in life. Power, energy or consciousness is the life spark of our Beings. To seek to innerstand this power is to set ourselves free to Be our selves.

Courage or the Fearless Heart. 
It takes a lot of courage to have healthy boundaries, when Our and Mother Earth's healthy boundaries have been abused. These "healthy boundaries",  are embodied in the Integrity of a person's choice to walk a Spiritual Life. This "integrity" some say is the embodiment of  the precepts of Truth, Love, Respect, Honesty, Humility, Humor, Responsibility, Compassion, Courage, Wise Ways, take nothing personal, do the best we can each day and don't ass-ume …etc… because when one walks this Way, no man made laws are needed…. and social Culture arises from this Spiritual Way of Being, Mitakuye Oyas'in. Imagine a day when "forgiveness" is not necessary, because we are walking in Respect, balance and harmony with All Life ~ with our selves ~ this is an innocence we have all lost, and long to return to. Please note, that invoking "fear" was not named as a precept, even though for some, it is fear that gets them to change.

This Courage or Fearless Heart, comes from a place of spiritual sovranty - when a person no longer acquiesces or puts something between themselves and their relationship with their cultural -spiritual sovranty and the Source of All Life. Are some of us Spiritual Protectors? ~ those who stand between harms way and the future generations to come. Are our prayers and meditations good, yet actions for the greater good better - becoming Spiritual activists? My words for these aspects are "Being the Prayer in Motion".

Today - at this time-space we have all chosen to come here, for this epic change of the ages. Today we are the living prayer of our ancestors for the
One Great Peace.
Today we choose to resonate the Love, Peace and Joy that will heal.  With this choice may also come the Responsibility to live solutions, and determine, through "judgement" what is harmonious relationship with All Life. We are choosing loving kindness rather than fear and abuse to change ourselves and our reality. This does not always mean that it is not painful, and humbling to see what we need to change in ourselves and our actions, for a more loving reality.

This is something I have learned about Abuse. I know no woman that has not experienced some form of abuse in her life. The statistics of 1 in 4 women is a fallacy…why? because we are the birthers and caregivers of Life and interconnected to and made of Mother Earth and All Life… and because there are so many forms of abuse. Verbal, poverty, educational, warfare, ecocide, religious, government, racism, ageism, and perceptions of in-equality even between woman to woman relationships, etc….

Another aspect of abuse is the obfuscation of healthy boundaries for Self and for, or in relationship with others.
This obfuscation of healthy boundaries, leads to a lack of Trust in Self and others. When we do not have healthy boundaries, we loose Respect and Trust for Self and the abuse becomes self inflicted, we become participants of the cycle of abuse, and this is also the loss of innocence. Forgiving ourselves is a first step in healing.

If healthy boundaries become synonymous with "judgements of which we are not to have", then i see no reason to have leadership Councils. We should go back to the sewing circle, because if we do not have trust in the truth and wise that each of us  bring to the collective Hoop … trust in the discernment (judgement) about the health of our respective Cultures and Spiritual Life Ways we each have given our lives too …which Is an authority and expertise from our respective perspectives,  that potentially can nourish and strengthen us in this diversity… if we have no trust in our personal relationship with Self, we can have no collective trust.... and how then, will we be able to navigate, and walk for the greater good of all life?  

Will we stand idly by and let all of our Water be poisoned, or will we choose to turn a blind eye to the abuse of government leaders, or continue to support fear mongers who perpetuate the belief that we have No Power… our Power is in giving and focusing on the Solutions, and sometimes the Solution is to not support or participate in something that is not healthy…. oh - yet this takes some "judgement" to determine what is healthy or not for ourselves and how we choose to raise our children. 

We are told to never speak harshly of others, that this is judgmental. Are we speaking harshly of others when we protest or educate others about historical and current conditions, for example, missionary schools, genocide, terracide or government corruption? 
When we say "Rescind the Papal Bulls, because they are lies"? Or when we see an abuse of power in religious orders ? All this causes me to pause and ask, What is a Spiritual Protector to you? What would you protect if you have no judgement, knowledge, discernment, power?

In some situations we might say, "Not my Way" and have the power to excuse ourselves, without the need for justification, so that our energy can nourish positive solutions, avoid drama, or the situation just calls for the acceptance to agree to dis-agree, and not take things personally, or maybe someone elses behavior may speak more about them, than you.  Life is short, and we may choose to just cut off the cachingaderas.  

So ~ back to innocence… being inner-connected to this innocence is a Joy and laughter that is boundless within. Our inner child's eyes are the eyes of all children. I continue to be awed by Gurus who profess that hunger, rape, warfare and suffering is an illusion. Have we asked the children about this ill-usion? ...then again, it's all ok, we are going to wake up after 5K+ yrs of this illusion, and put on a different movie, right? oops, in "no judgment", there is no right and wrong, right?

Courage is sparked from a deep Love for All Life and Resilience, like Water, that flows around obstacles, Water ~ the first healer, and from which we are made, ~ Women are caregivers of Water, ~ Water that energizes and magnetizes our prayers, thoughts, emotions and Life Ways of Beauty. Water is a Truth, that we can not live without, Water is Love.

If discernment/judgement is a folly and not seen as truth's courage to see what Is in all Life's beauty and grief, let this folly bring peace for my innocence.



Part 2

When the Fireside Theater Came to Town
~ bringing the horned dog ~

A Seed , a Stone, a Tree's loveroots growing
from the river, Water of Life's knowing
of a Fireside Theater that would come to pass
and the green grass beneath all children's feet
would grow sweet  
along the Great Path of Peace

Fireside Theater preacher man's side kick
 stands up and says
" woman stop talkin 
and being a distraction 
to the job of the preacher man"

so She drifted off with 
eyes gaze only with beauty way's
heartbeat rhythm that made All Life
from this Love 
blessing all that Is

Then the Fireside Theater preacher man
 all dressed up in his  real-ized 
loudly conjuring up yelps yelling
"have you seen the horned dog?"

She said,  "you talkin to me?"

 blustered face yells "YEAH YOU! 
 HAVE YOU SEEN THE HORNED DOG!?"

"oh, you mean am not a distraction?"
wonder wondered if preacher man's rage
was terror's intention to invoke, invent
a smoky mirror
to bring woman into his do-man-ation

"sure i seen the horned dog,
that appears 
because Believe feeds it's energy. 
same as Quan Yin, 
she appears too - 
because of Believe's feeding
compassion… 

that dog… 
the one that feeds off indoctrination's 
conceived by the papal bull …
that dog…
like rats on the treadmill 
of it's battle between good and evil"

preacher man's face blood raged
and her Prayer Way left with all due respect  
to energize and feed 
Beauty Way's Life Ways 
goodness for All Relations

and the Fireside Theater's preacher man 
faded away with 
that dog.


When we let go, or something is removed from, or we choose - healthy boundaries, judgements or whatever you want to call it.... a space opens for us to nourish beauty, love and good relation with Self, others and All Life.

Thanks for listening.
Alis ~Itlatol

Monday, April 21, 2014

Two Poems and a Tale

"Lead Balloons", " Eyes of an Eagle Dancer Boy " and
"Bouncing around with mom, dad, and the man who visited Black Mesa"



LEAD BALLOONS

There are words like lead balloons
the words that just don't come out in a way  
that a particular audience can hear quite yet…

the lead balloons that still touch that place in me 
of self-doubt, that can still the quiet and big voice
that wants to come out

that wants to know 
one is not alone 
on this journey home 

every dis-ease that humanity created 
comes from their out of balance relationship 
with Mother Earth and the harmony  
with the feminine-masculine
dance of Creationing

Sometimes I remember 
to share that which has blessed 
and healed my Spirit and the heart brokenness .

Sometimes I forget that broken 
doesn't want to be heard or remembered or forgot

Sometimes forgot forgot to remember
and remember remembers to forgive

Is speaking of the suffering passing the trauma on?
I don't know, sometimes i feel that some things 
just can't be sugar coated anymore.

I want to see our children live free…
Mother Earth has healthy boundaries, 
her medicine is bigger than me 


EYES OF AN EAGLE DANCER BOY

Seven years old my momma took me to Hopi 
to visit some of our relatives in Arizona. 

That day, the hot and dry rippled  
the tourists blurred and faded, 
like ghosts on the northern side
wanting wanting a snapshot outta time
my mom and i 
were standing in the southern door 
quietly a mom held open 
her north east door like the morning star, 
for her son to enter 
the Plaza's heart.
The young Eagle boy dancer was a bit more than my size, 
he walked to the center, 
wings down at his side…… 
one beat drum…
and then the heartbeat rhythm 
lifted his wings
his flight took me with him
between earth and sky, 
we became inner twined
in that mystic where there is no time
when we came back 
to touch the earth, 
he stood so close 
the thunders gathered
arm wings stretched out between 
the unseen and seen 
like a river inner connecting 
the above and below, 
one leg slightly bent toward me, 
a respect and honor
our eyes embraced in a forever
love blossomed within us
never forgotten  
his momma told my momma 
that i was their daughter…
my mom freaked out….and I told her 
am ok am Home momma
this is home momma
there are some things that remember will never forget 

It took me 20 some years of Life's journey 
and rites to get back to Hopi, 
this is why i know what  it means 
when a woman and man's 
"eyes are the windows to the soul"
and all of us 
are Creationing's sons and daughters
~ A.M.  2014

"Bouncing around with mom, dad, and The man who came to Black Mesa"

cup the starlight you are made of gently

my great grandmother lived in the 1800's
when the vatican's conquistadores
beheaded anyone suspected 
or were, "mixed blood"
and deemed unpure

They also killed indios for practicing 
their culture 
and traditional healing arts. 
The Healing gift is what ended life
for my great grandmother
leaving 9 children
only three daughters we know of
6 disappeared never to be found

three sister seeds like Corn, Beans and Squash
were blown and scattered yet the
Resilience, the moving flow of birthing 
who of Ma's Matter
weaving worlds within worlds
of heart stretched drumsongs
of women weaves eternal love
hidden and rising to blossom, fruit
and seed again  

for love of land and life
sky and starlight
the rhythm and sway of 
seasons cycles
has no boarders and imaginary lines
of where and what and who makes you
Mother's daughters of the 
beauty that made us

>>>*<<<<

from birth to 11 yrs old
was raised in a village
born and made by our parents
who were from every nation

Red, Black White and Yellow
courageous fathers,  the US government 
called commie pinko faggot
momma's boys
and imprisoned them

Mamma's boyz they were
refusing to be fodder for wars
and lies and genocide
that has spread like a blanket worldwide
called the US Empire

their women resisted along side 
and eventually freed all their men
while still raising their children 
free and teaching Truth's Love and Peace
and refused and protected them
from vatican religion and indoctrination

this village made of
Red, Black White and Yellow
shared openly their teachings and spirituality
with all their children

this village a microcosm
of a great Council of Peace
each honoring and respecting the 
roles,  responsibilities and dedication 
for a Hoop of Peaceful Nations

one daughter learned the meaning 
for her… of the teaching given to all children
to travel from the 3rd world to the Fourth
there is only one language of Massau
and everyone can feel, knows and be this…
for we are made with Breath of Life's
language of the Heart

"Do not pledge allegiance to a flag 
without knowing what it stands for. 
Your allegiance is always with Mother Earth, 
the Peoples and all her children." 
is what daddy told his daughters
kiss the earth and dance with sky
we are related to All Life …
are what makes children fierce lovers

yeah there were the days
of protest and marches
with Cezar Chavez, King, AIM, Panthers, Nam war, 
et. all. 
Today i want Peace more than ever

this village was my water poured upon heart stone
coyote tales and playground 
and first sweatlodge at 5yrs old
a secret then and before
the 1978 Native American 
Freedom of Religion Act. 

My mom now 90 yrs old returned with me
to great granpa's ancestral Comanche land… 
which is really the treaty and reservation 
that all of us Nations
that have lived and traded for generations 
raided girls and sold them
to become the mothers of future generations
and resisted with Taos Pueblo
the Spanish inquisitions

Am i hear to heal past present and future?
or is this futures past remembering?
years later ...

<<<<< * >>>>>
 at Black Mesa visiting Rick who was doctoring with a family, 
I was sitting outside on the porch and a man came across the field 
and up the steps. 

He was repeating over and over 
" do you see them, they are going to get me… i need to see Rick"
This man was haunted by spirits and could not remember. 
I said  " here come sit, i will stay with you while you wait" and offered him a smoke and patted the seat of the chair next to me while he waited till Rick and the family were finished.
After being with Rick for a short while, the man left still haunted.

I asked Rick, why the man was still the same, and couldn't the man be helped.
Rick said that medicine is received by the capacity and willingness of the person to receive it, and as for the man still being haunted was because he was still not ready to set right what he needed to, within himself … and therefore could not set right with others.

Or maybe after so many doctorings when someone does not get better, this means this is just how they are made this time around.

   >>>>*<<<< 

 i had to "buy back" the land where i live
because after my great-grandmother's murder, 
and the Comanche did not pass land matrilineally and 
my great grandfather ran off and married a spanish woman leaving the 9 children to become tossed like seed by a storm of government dictation…. 
aren't these  "run-on" sentences of ideologies that need endings? 

When my son was 6yrs old, and with the little money i had we searched for a little land we could afford…my son picked this one…at the time i did not know it was part of great-granpa's treaty land track… 
like a genetic marker calling me home.

"We need you to remember" is what Rick told me when i finally realized he was teaching me. Humility has never been my problem, lack of self worth was wot i learned whenever i lived in the world of separation's isms.

maybe am color blind
or maybe i see all colors
some told me when you mix them all together 
it makes black
is the black stillness of night
where light is birthed 
from the great cosmic womb 
with the elements of creation?

"Don't mix medicine" and "If you don't know what you are doing, 
don't mess with it, there's ancestors that caregive for these ways"
"these are gate keepers for your protection".

Are we the Magpie's, Wongali and Humminbirds we are looking for?

Professor Delia taught me all the grammatical english rules, and then told me to break every one of them. Language that is whole cup of tea and then some. 

Thank you for listening.
Alis ~ Itlatol
A.M. 2014