Two Poems and a Tale

"Lead Balloons", " Eyes of an Eagle Dancer Boy " and

"Bouncing around with mom, dad, and the man who visited Black Mesa"

LEAD BALLOONS

There are words like lead balloons

the words that just don't come out in a way  

that a particular audience can hear quite yet…

the lead balloons that still touch that place in me 

of self-doubt, that can still the quiet and big voice

that wants to come out

that wants to know 

one is not alone 

on this journey home 

every dis-ease that humanity created 

comes from their out of balance relationship 

with Mother Earth and the harmony  

with the feminine-masculine

dance of Creationing

Sometimes I remember 

to share that which has blessed 

and healed my Spirit and the heart brokenness .

Sometimes I forget that broken 

doesn't want to be heard or remembered or forgot

Sometimes forgot forgot to remember

and remember remembers to forgive

Is speaking of the suffering passing the trauma on?

I don't know, sometimes i feel that some things 

just can't be sugar coated anymore.

I want to see our children live free…

Mother Earth has healthy boundaries, 

her medicine is bigger than me 

EYES OF AN EAGLE DANCER BOY

Seven years old my momma took me to Hopi 

to visit some of our relatives in Arizona. 

That day, the hot and dry rippled  

the tourists blurred and faded, 

like ghosts on the northern side

wanting wanting a snapshot outta time

my mom and i 

were standing in the southern door 

quietly a mom held open 

her north east door like the morning star, 

for her son to enter 

the Plaza's heart.

The young Eagle boy dancer was a bit more than my size, 

he walked to the center, 

wings down at his side…… 

one beat drum…

and then the heartbeat rhythm 

lifted his wings

his flight took me with him

between earth and sky, 

we became inner twined

in that mystic where there is no time

when we came back 

to touch the earth, 

he stood so close 

the thunders gathered

arm wings stretched out between 

the unseen and seen 

like a river inner connecting 

the above and below, 

one leg slightly bent toward me, 

a respect and honor

our eyes embraced in a forever

love blossomed within us

never forgotten  

his momma told my momma 

that i was their daughter…

my mom freaked out….and I told her 

am ok am Home momma

this is home momma

there are some things that remember will never forget 

It took me 20 some years of Life's journey 

and rites to get back to Hopi, 

this is why i know what  it means 

when a woman and man's 

"eyes are the windows to the soul"

and all of us 

are Creationing's sons and daughters

~ A.M.  2014

"Bouncing around with mom, dad, and The man who came to Black Mesa"

cup the starlight you are made of gently

my great grandmother lived in the 1800's

when the vatican's conquistadores

beheaded anyone suspected 

or were, "mixed blood"

and deemed unpure

They also killed indios for practicing 

their culture 

and traditional healing arts. 

The Healing gift is what ended life

for my great grandmother

leaving 9 children

only three daughters we know of

6 disappeared never to be found

three sister seeds like Corn, Beans and Squash

were blown and scattered yet the

Resilience, the moving flow of birthing 

who of Ma's Matter

weaving worlds within worlds

of heart stretched drumsongs

of women weaves eternal love

hidden and rising to blossom, fruit

and seed again  

for love of land and life

sky and starlight

the rhythm and sway of 

seasons cycles

has no boarders and imaginary lines

of where and what and who makes you

Mother's daughters of the 

beauty that made us

>>>*<<<<

from birth to 11 yrs old

was raised in a village

born and made by our parents

who were from every nation

Red, Black White and Yellow

courageous fathers,  the US government 

called commie pinko faggot

momma's boys

and imprisoned them

Mamma's boyz they were

refusing to be fodder for wars

and lies and genocide

that has spread like a blanket worldwide

called the US Empire

their women resisted along side 

and eventually freed all their men

while still raising their children 

free and teaching Truth's Love and Peace

and refused and protected them

from vatican religion and indoctrination

this village made of

Red, Black White and Yellow

shared openly their teachings and spirituality

with all their children

this village a microcosm

of a great Council of Peace

each honoring and respecting the 

roles,  responsibilities and dedication 

for a Hoop of Peaceful Nations

one daughter learned the meaning 

for her… of the teaching given to all children

to travel from the 3rd world to the Fourth

there is only one language of Massau

and everyone can feel, knows and be this…

for we are made with Breath of Life's

language of the Heart

"Do not pledge allegiance to a flag 

without knowing what it stands for. 

Your allegiance is always with Mother Earth, 

the Peoples and all her children." 

is what daddy told his daughters

kiss the earth and dance with sky

we are related to All Life …

are what makes children fierce lovers

yeah there were the days

of protest and marches

with Cezar Chavez, King, AIM, Panthers, Nam war, 

et. all. 

Today i want Peace more than ever

this village was my water poured upon heart stone

coyote tales and playground 

and first sweatlodge at 5yrs old

a secret then and before

the 1978 Native American 

Freedom of Religion Act. 

My mom now 90 yrs old returned with me

to great granpa's ancestral Comanche land… 

which is really the treaty and reservation 

that all of us Nations

that have lived and traded for generations 

raided girls and sold them

to become the mothers of future generations

and resisted with Taos Pueblo

the Spanish inquisitions

Am i hear to heal past present and future?

or is this futures past remembering?

years later ...

<<<<< * >>>>>

 at Black Mesa visiting Rick who was doctoring with a family, 

I was sitting outside on the porch and a man came across the field 

and up the steps. 

He was repeating over and over 

" do you see them, they are going to get me… i need to see Rick"

This man was haunted by spirits and could not remember. 

I said  " here come sit, i will stay with you while you wait" and offered him a smoke and patted the seat of the chair next to me while he waited till Rick and the family were finished.

After being with Rick for a short while, the man left still haunted.

I asked Rick, why the man was still the same, and couldn't the man be helped.

Rick said that medicine is received by the capacity and willingness of the person to receive it, and as for the man still being haunted was because he was still not ready to set right what he needed to, within himself … and therefore could not set right with others.

Or maybe after so many doctorings when someone does not get better, this means this is just how they are made this time around.

   >>>>*<<<< 

 i had to "buy back" the land where i live

because after my great-grandmother's murder, 

and the Comanche did not pass land matrilineally and 

my great grandfather ran off and married a spanish woman leaving the 9 children to become tossed like seed by a storm of government dictation…. 

aren't these  "run-on" sentences of ideologies that need endings? 

When my son was 6yrs old, and with the little money i had we searched for a little land we could afford…my son picked this one…at the time i did not know it was part of great-granpa's treaty land track… 

like a genetic marker calling me home.

"We need you to remember" is what Rick told me when i finally realized he was teaching me. Humility has never been my problem, lack of self worth was wot i learned whenever i lived in the world of separation's isms.

maybe am color blind

or maybe i see all colors

some told me when you mix them all together 

it makes black

is the black stillness of night

where light is birthed 

from the great cosmic womb 

with the elements of creation?

"Don't mix medicine" and "If you don't know what you are doing, 

don't mess with it, there's ancestors that caregive for these ways"

"these are gate keepers for your protection".

Are we the Magpie's, Wongali and Humminbirds we are looking for?

Professor Delia taught me all the grammatical english rules, and then told me to break every one of them. Language that is whole cup of tea and then some. 

Thank you for listening.

Alis ~ Itlatol

A.M. 2014

Wild, Whole and Beautiful : healing the degrees of separation

image: Hozho.eu

'Spirit knows no color, Either your a haytah or a lovah' -India.Arie

 “Every mestizo is one less Indian — or one more Indian waiting to reemerge.” 

- Jose Barreiro, Taino/Guajiro

Wakan Tanka Tungasila, Kokyangwhuti Oonau

With gratitude for those that have walked before us, for those that walk today, and for the future generations - with gratitude for all who were, are, and will be caregivers of our teachings and original instructions, for those who have given, give, and will give their lives to insure that our teachings are passed on from generation to generation, so that we may Live. 

With gratitude for the those who taught me, "We teach you so that you will re-member who you are and will seed and nourish these teachings, live them the best you are able during this time, where you live, so that One Great Peace may be realized." 

With colonization wumyn and children were murdered, bought and sold, adopted and sent to missionary schools. Today our wumyn are still being murdered.  Colonial Laws now say that if we do not send our children to colonial type schools, our children can be or are taken away from us. Too many children are adopted to families that have no knowledge of our ways or teachings. If a wumyn marries outside federally recognized People, the children and families loose their ancestral lands. 

All of this is about taking of the lands, all of this is about genocide, all of this is about assimilation, all of this is to impoverish families and put them into the system of buying and selling land and enslave our Peoples to work for the colonial system. All of this is about incarceration of primarily our young MEN. 

It is about teaching our children to hate or deny one or the other part of themselves which fragments their minds, emotions and keeps them in a perpetual state of duality and separation within themselves. In this separation our children commit suicide or become addicted to drugs because they do not feel loved, are ostracized and categorized by both colonizer and the Peoples. This is called internalized oppression.

All of this is about forgetting who we are, that we are made of Earth and Sky and are Spirit Beings and Creationing made us.... Creationing made us....Creationing made us Hozho, beautiful whole and perfect. 

It is about creating separation and conflict based on this separation…all in the name of quantifying a Wumyn's eggs, her life, her worth and treat her like an object.

Wakan Tanka, my prayer is for our wumyn, to stand up in their Authority as Wumyn to let no man define our genetic eggs that contain our bloodlines and genetic memory of our ancestors. Our eggs, that are the future generations, Our eggs that are given to us whole and beautiful by Wakan Tanka.

My prayer is that this genetic memory awaken in our wumyn, and the  inclusive and loving WISE nature of the Great Mother Earth - that all children are her children will be realized within all hearts and minds of the Peoples for the One Great Peace. 

My prayer is for our Wumyn to rise as the teachers of our children to re-weave our Cultural Life Ways and Wise Ways of living in harmony and balance with Mother Earth, All Life and each other.

My prayer is for Unity and peace within the hearts and minds of all Two Legged Peoples because without Mother Earth, Water, Air and right relationship with Fire, and each other …there is no life.

My prayer is for our Nations to grow healthy and numerous, and our Life Ways nourish and educate others and become our Relatives. My prayer is for good health and gratitude for my relatives who choose to walk the Red Road of harmony with Mother Earth and the Blue Road of Spirit, for we now walk side by side for your blood is and has always been red - just like mine. And now, we have a common language that is born from our shared prayers and life ways together. 

My prayer is that no matter where our children are, walking gently and in harmony with Mother Earth, Father Sun and Cosmos that they always remember who they are, and no longer acquiesce their cultural spiritual relationship and soveranty with  Wakan Tanka, for it is Wakan Tanka who made us Wild, Whole and Beautiful.

May we continue to pray, sing, dance, and caregive the Life Ways and Wise Ways of our Healing Cultures, for now is the time of the One Great Peace to be realized. 

With gratitude for our Men who walk side by side with us, stand with us, and protect us. 

Aho Mitakuye Oyas'in 

Alis~Itlatol

Hena Wakan Pi ~ Itlatol

All Life is Sacred ~ Life's Voice, Song and Wise Story

Thank you Jose Barriero and India.Arie for your wise words and onkwehón:we scholar Jack D. Forbes 

http://onkwehonwerising.wordpress.com/2013/08/29/the-mestizo-concept-a-product-of-european-imperialism/

Voices from the Dreamseed Traditions

Wumyn around the world 

who fully innerstand their power

as daughterseed, 

mother moonflows, 

birthgivers, 

and innerflowers (crones) …

when they cycle together 

in their respective communities and cultures 

worldwide, 

during their Wumyn's ceremonies

they are mid-wives 

of the Birth, 

of Mother Earth's New Creation Story, 

woven from the tapestry 

of collective ancestral wisdom (prophecies)

and cultural cosmo-visions, 

of Peace.

Every culture worldwide has the knowledge of
how and where they are birthed from. 

These locations around the Earth Mother are real and tangible. Some are older than old, and have been cared for by the original peoples of those birth places. Some birth places no longer birth, they have become ancestral "crone" libraries of wisdom. Yes, Mother Earth has her own libraries and she has given birth to each new world, and each new world has had different eco-systems and shape of her skin.

This wisdom is also in the Cosmos. 

The Cosmos also has a Womb of Creation. 

This is why we are made of Earth and Sky.

Mother Earth comes from the womb of the"Milk and Honey Galaxy", 

which came  from the Great Womb of this Cosmos.

Wumyn are made as the feminine principle of Creationing. Our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies are made with direct inner and interconnection to the Womb of Creation and the tapestry of seed, birth, life, and renewal - this Great Mystery is not just a "biological" definition. We naturally give life from the non-form into form, from the un-seen to the seen. Because of this ability we are considered sacred.

We cycle cosmologically with Mother Earth and her Nature in relation with Grandmother Moon, our Solar Tribe, the Milk and Honey Galaxy and the Cosmos - within the great spiral womb-hoop with seed, birth, life and renewal from the Womb of Creationing. The mayan calendars are a most powerful example with this cosmological relationship. We have come to know our lives in form as having the life stages of seed, baby, youth, adult, elder and renewal. We have ceremonies for all of these stages, and from this relationship comes our cultural cosmo-visions in balance and harmony with all Life.

The masculine resonance and energy is the spark and energizing, protective, nourishing, loving, activating principle of this cycle. We can learn everything from Nature or Natural Law. What is the most healthy environment for a Wumyn to mid-wife and caregive, seed, birth, life and renewal in harmony and rhythm with the Womb of Creation?

An environment that is nourished, beautiful, peaceful and loving.  When she is healthy, her family is healthy. Healthy families create healthy peaceful nations. 

In the traditions of the Dreamseed culture which we come from, wumyn are the caregivers of the Dreaming. The Dreaming is the dialogue with the Sentient Creationing Source of All Life. Dialogue meaning: listening-receiving, and response - which may be to give voice to the dreamseeds, dream-visions, create from them as in direct action or non action. These Wumyn are loved and cherished by their People's because their 13 senses, and nine physical "chakras" are highly attuned to Creationing and they are attuned to the dreaming life flow always in all ways.

The dreaming is inner-relational with the element of water. This is why in many matrilineal cultures around the world wumyn are also the caregivers of the Water of Life, which is our embryonic fluid, our tears, and our bodies are made of mostly water and we are birthed from water. Water is the most powerful energizer of inner and inter communication. One day modern scientists will "prove", that the dark between the "light" in the cosmos, is mostly water.

Wumyn of the Dreamseed Traditions are the caregivers of the personal, family, land, region, planetary and cosmological relationship with the Dreaming through their Life Ways and Ceremonies that are inner and interconnected with, the natural cycles of Wumyn, Mother Earth, Moon, Sun and Cosmos.
Elder, Ilarion Merculief explains this from his People's innerstanding
knowing: http://theforcesofnature.com/movies/larry-merculieff/  6minutes

At one time our roles were to share the dream messages that come from our ceremonies with the People's, via a Sacred Trust we had with our Men, who as protectors of our sanctuaries, would go out into the community to communicate and give the activating energy to those dream messages. 

Later when the patriarch came, our voices were considered beautiful, however we were harmed because these messages would dissolve the colonial patriarchal construct of ill-usions and the many religions and ideologies of god worship. So we became a threat to the patriarch's coveting of our power to life give, which it replaced with idolization of the gods of money, property and prestige. Many of our Men and Peoples have died for this Sacred Trust of carrying our messages of balance, harmony, love and truth. Now there are fewer peoples who re-member or know what the original Trust, or relationship was between man and wumyn and the Dreaming. 

Today women are speaking and sharing because too few men can speak for us anymore. Prana - breath, and sound being the first form of creation, can now be heard in our rhythmical prayer breathsongs in many forms, of giving birth to a new world.

We are grateful and blessed by the men that walk side by side with us,

help protect the sanctuaries of our nests, Mother Earth, All Life

and nourish the blossoming of feminine wisdom in balance with the masculine.

Part 2:

For many the colonial construct is understood Her-storically, in that wumyn were the first to be subjugated and murdered. For the survival of her children, some chose to align themselves with the colonial patriarch, which changed their alignment to competition with their sisters vs cooperation, and agreed to become objects of power vs sovereign caregivers of the wisdom that comes through the relationship of cycling together.  From this separation she separated herself from the power of collective mooncycling with her sisters and the wisdom of Being the guiding life source of right relationship with each other, Mother Earth and All Life. Wumyn also learned to create hierarchies, that are no better than patriarchs. Wumyn as the foundation of cultural health and well being, educate our children with Mother Earth and Cosmos as Being first teacher and we are interrelated in the same knowing as Mother Earth. All children, of all forms, are Her children,  and have the same birthrights.

The devastating effects of this has wounded our men of the colonial world because their mothers did not and could not protect them (because of their willingly adopted and unwillingly imposed beliefs and violence) from being birthed into a culture that demanded men's and humanity's slavery and servitude to creating oppression within themselves and a cycle of defending a patriarchal position and cycle of non-renewal. Look around at the lifestyles that have been created by colonial patriarchal thinking, these are life ways that are non-sustaining and non-renewing. This is the meaning of patriarchal "death" and is not the same meaning of wumyn's innerstanding wisdom of renewals part of the cycle of life.

Part 3

As wumyn are being asked to step into our roles and authority as leaders, lifegivers, provide solutions…etc. When we return to Our natural cycles, nourish, birth, anew, rejuvenate our women's councils and ceremonies, caregive  healthy self and families, re-member cooperation and let go of hierarchal thinking and behaving, we will become the midwives of cultures of Peace. We will reweave the ancestral Dreaming of Creationing with each other.

Beautiful Wumyn and Beautiful Man

with joy in sacred union

for you are the caregivers of

harmonious relationship with each other

and Creationing

With all the amassed "perceived wealth"

that the colonial construct has man- u-fractured life with,

remember that we have lived long before this was created

and we will continue to live when it no longer exists.

Wumyn re-member when we return to our original cycles and honor the sacred Days and Ways…the colonial construct will change because

it can not survive with out our participation.

This is one of the ways forward without violence, and 

our men will support this.

Feel this…potentially a minimum of four days a month for the New and 4 days for Full moons, of Bliss... and our men in total and complete non compliance and non cooperation with the colonial construct. No shopping, no driving, no work jobs, only creating beauty, health and well-being for our families and communities - worldwide. This is a good start for all of humanity.

We are also on the front lines of protecting and nourishing water, land, life and Life Ways, because without a healthy Mother Earth and wumyn… how can we have healthy births? Mother Earth will heal herself, and we will heal with Her, when we live in balance and harmony with her and each other.

Prayers and blessings, for all life and everyone,
thank you for listening.

ama, February 6th 2014    Huichol Artist ~ Unknown to me.

Mariposas, Butterflys ...

The Danza de la Mariposa came as a Vision 
from the Ancestors to a few of our Grandmothers, 
in Taos New Mexico...

Visions are not always personal, 

sometimes they are planetary, 

they are cosmic, and collective ... 

Visions are one of the languages 

of the inner and interconnections 

with and of the Dreaming consciousness
of Creationing. 

The wumyn and men who have received this same Dream 

or are called by this resonance 

are finding each other. 

What is the Medicine of the Butterfly?

Beauty, Creativity, Truth, Transformative healing, Wisdom,

Protection, Alchemic Knowledge, Generosity, Flow, Love, Peace

living the Dance of  balance and harmony with all Life

Eternal life, 

the Hunab Ku is the Galactic Butterfly 

High Majick with the Mysterious

the Butterfly is the Flower of Life

and so much more

Just like the Medicine Wheel of Life

so too, the Butterfly has these qualities.

Egg, Caterpillar, Chrysalis, Butterfly

Birth, Youth, Adult, Elder

Inner and outer, both masculine and feminine resonances

Let us come into the next realization as a form

of expression of Creationing's evolution ...

We are as old as the birth of this universe.

We are this living consciousness.

Please join us for our first Ceremony 

https://www.facebook.com/events/717715248262159/?ref=br_tf

ama 1.12.2014

P.S. Right now, am writing, painting, dreamseeding, transforming, giving, receiving... 

the energies are building for Love, Peace, Unity and healing change ... all births

are Life changing... as we walk together as mid-wives and wise-men, let us remember that each and everyone of us is important, that each of us has something to bring to the Hoop to make the changes necessary to live in balance with Mother Earth. There is no "one way" outta the mess"...it will take all of us (black, red, yellow, white, green, blue, violet...etc.) to re- weave and re-member our inner an inter relational Life Ways for the 

One Great Peace to be fully Birthed and Realized.

Pony Up

Are you listening? Can you hear it?

Heart stretched Drum rhythms 

weaving Life's tapestries

pulse sing within 

the Womb of Creationing

Mother Earth's heartbeat  

Butterfly Midwifes and Protectors

all in synchronization

birthing the new Sun

of balance and harmony  

woven with Love

and the Original Instructions

 Jay Says, "i am not the one who is sick"… 

yes… once we are strong and have healed…the predator comes again to tell us "we are still sick" or to go after another one of our wumyn or children… because, the psychopathic predator in it's sickest form also says:

"it's all love", "raping you is love", and  " genocide and ecocide is love" and is all dressed up in the poetry and stories of religion's matrix that the predator created to objectify and subjugate us. 

People tell us we need "healthy boundaries" … they want us to believe that if we had healthy boundaries, we would not be "victims"...

"build them" they say, "build them because if you had them, the predator could not get in…build them until you have created your own inner prison"….

or that these experiences are "only life lessons that we need until WE change

and really come to know 'enlightenment' "... well enlighten this:

The predator thinks that predatory behavior is a natural state of Being … 

IT IS NOT ... 

Our Elders said: Recognize who comes in a Good Way, to listen, learn and live in good relation with All Life and each other.

The predator has morphed and become more adept in it's cunning…

Some have learned enough of our Natural Ways, to "appear as if they are friend"…and they continue to go after our wumyn and children, 

because they fear: 

* that we know that we do not acquiesce our spiritual-cultural sovranty as Beings, that we have natural direct connection to Creationing, because this is the truth in how we are made of earth and sky... 

* that All wumyn have direct connection to the Cosmic Womb of Creation that has birthed everything… no, we did not come from a man's rib... and this may be the most frightening to their made up matrix of illusions

* that wumyn and their families have direct connection to Mother Earth's Heart and life birthing cycles with Grandmother Moon, Sun Father and the Cosmos…

*and fear the wumyn and men who live by these natural laws and original instructions…and are the Protectors and Warriors of this Wisdom

It is Joy to caregive the dreamseeds of original instructions, wisdom and beauty ways now and for the future generations...

it is Joy to provide the means to heal as our ancestors and Elders 

caregave and passed to us, 

it is Joy because we do not die ... 

we are alive and will live again... 

it is Joy when we all walk side by side 

as caregivers, protectors and warriors and Live Love with the 

the Staff of Authority called the Obsidian Blade of Truth ... 

The predator's burden is no longer ours to carry. 

Forgiveness does not relieve them of responsibility for reparations, 

their healing and changing their behavior, PAST and CURRENTLY DUE. 

We do not die...

we are the Living consciousness of past, present and future

we are the Living Mystery of Creation's expression

and one day the sound of the Cosmic Heartbeat

will be heard by all Peoples everywhere 

With gratitude for the Elders who helped us heal and remember

the Original Instructions, and how we are made, 

for the wumyn and men who walk side by side in balance and harmony

as life's caregivers, and protectors 

for those who have heard the heart beat of All that Is from the stillness 

for the Beauty Way we live with all Relatives, 

for the blood, flesh and bone that has been given 

will Now nourish the Tree of Life's dreamseeds 

for being able to live a simple and good life with Mother Earth, 

Sun Father and Cosmos, 

for being here at this time-space to feel the birthing pains and joys of 

a New Sun woven of the living prayers, wisdom and Life Ways of our Peoples for thousands of years... 

for Love's Truth ...

So care give your Ponies ...

we are riding

lelelelelele 

Picture by: Horse, Eagle Rivers in the Ocean FB

ama ~ 01*11*2014

Celebrating Protectors and Caregivers : Repairing the Sacred Hoop of Life

Celebrating Protectors and Caregivers :

Repairing the Sacred Hoop of Life

I have often wondered why we have adopted the word "survivor" in relation to the "war on women and children" or violence toward us. 

 -"A veteran (from Latin vetus, meaning "old")[1] is a person who has had long service or experience in a particular occupation or field; " A veteran of ..."

sur·vive  (sr-vv)

v. sur·vived, sur·viv·ing, sur·vives

v.intr.

1. To remain alive or in existence.

2. To carry on despite hardships or trauma; persevere: families that were surviving in tents after the flood.

3. To remain functional or usable: I dropped the radio, but it survived.

v.tr.

1. To live longer than; outlive: She survived her husband by five years.

2. To live, persist, or remain usable through: plants that can survive frosts; a clock that survived a fall.

3. To cope with (a trauma or setback); persevere after: survived child abuse.

"Survivor" status tells us that we go on to "exist, persevere despite what has happened to us, we are still functional or usable, we lived longer than the experience, we cope" all of which indirectly or directly still says we are objects under "occupation" and really does not celebrate the sacredness of our lives or Life . As "survivors" are we not also "educated through direct experience and healing" to change our behavior, be on guard, have heightened senses of awareness, learn to protect our children and home (lands), have had countless hours and years in traditional and non traditional healing modalities to recover, mend, heal, transform ourselves to live again, and live through thousands of years of wars on, and caught in the crossfire of violence? Where every wumyn and child is harmed, so too is their family and the men they are related to.

I remember one year at ceremony when we were honoring our Veterans, when the rifles were shot, i wanted to run for the hills and in that moment had a vision of all the raped and murdered wumyn and children in the world. It flowed like a tapestry of tears made of voiceless nameless wumyn and children caught in the crossfire. And then it became a worldwide wave of all the names, places, with the number of wumyn and children, both who are still living and those who had died, as a result of the many forms of war, rape, abuse - violence.

You see i no longer feel or think there are lesser or more damaging aspects of violence because it sends a message that there is a hiding place to justify, diminish the effects of one or another aspect of it, or create reasons for not healing ourselves and changing the culture of violence's many forms. Some of these forms are: being raped and tortured as child, woman or grandmother, being raped or murdered in a combat zone, being raped and assaulted at home (incest-domestic violence), date rape, work-place rape or sexual harassment, rape by religions and their missionaries, being stiffed by the men for work paid and not performed, being robbed, held hostage, poverty, being jeered at by drive bys, ogled and fondled in the minds and by the hands of perverts, emotional-mental-spiritual manipulation by psychopaths AND how our Mother Earth and her Peoples are being raped by corporations and politics. This is not a complete list of violence's abuses.

Some gurus say we are "not our "bodies", let the identity with your body-mind-emotions go". While spirit is beyond the physical form, here on earth we are inner and interconnected to the mind, body, emotions, spirit and all that is Creation. Furthermore when it comes to rape and torture, being externalized from your physical form is what the spirit does…its called the fight or flight response. We are born into the sacred temple of physical form for Creation to experience Life, creativity, beauty, and love…and no i do not think this war on wumyn and children as being "just your lesson in life"…simple lesson: violence is wrong and something went terribly wrong in the culture of humanity. Some call it "colonialism".

I recently heard a great song called "Overcomer", as a term for survivors of cancer. Am not fully feeling this word, and definitely do not relate to "survivor", rather have related to "Protector" for a very long time, and this is why: 

* Does it not take courage and bravery to face predators over and over again?

* Does it not take divine strength and skill to pick yourself up

and remake your life, relocate if you have to or stay and live where a predator walks free and unaccountable for their actions, time and time again after each assault?

* Does it not take compassion to forgive yourself and the predator?

* Does it not take Love's Truth to know that most predators have been victims

of abuse and/or rape, incest, war - themselves?

* Does it not take the skill of a special agent, to learn to recognize a psychopath as they become more and more skilled to stalk their prey via internet, in on and off line social networking and gatherings, and spot the infiltrators that show up at ceremonial or religious traditions, political arenas, and in our neighborhoods? After all not everyone has been busted yet.

* Does it not take great wisdom born from our own healing and generosity to decide to serve to help heal and protect others from harm?

* Does it not take trust to jump out of the river of denial and look into the world of violence on women and children and see it is also how Mother Earth is being treated?

We are protectors in the sense that we have learned protective skills…for ourselves, families and home (lands)…and as Protectors, we still love with all our hearts….now that is truly something. 

Here are some highlights from 2013:

We now have the the United Nations UNITE to end Violence Against Women and girls Campaign http://endviolence.un.org/goals.shtml and the 

International Day to End Violence Against Women  https://www.un.org/en/events/endviolenceday/  Despite this being recognized in the US for monetary reasons, i am hopeful that the culture of money, property, and prestige as reasons to eliminate violence will change to a culture that honors the sacredness of wumyn as caregivers of Life.

In March of 2013 Obama reauthorized VAWA which now empowers "Tribes to prosecute non-Indian perpetrators of domestic violence against Native American women in Indian country" http://www.whitehouse.gov/blog/2013/03/07/president-signs-2013-vawa-empowering-tribes-protect-native-women

"In February of 2013 , One billion people in 207 countries around the world" rose to sing, dance, pray and celebrate for the end of violence against wumyn and girls http://www.onebillionrising.org/  

There have also been videos and beautifully written public apologies made by men to wumyn of the world that specifically state they "understand" that the violence against women is perpetrated by men and they are stepping up to hold men accountable, and work with men to heal and change. Here is a link to Jeff Brown's apology to the Divine Feminine: http://soulshaping.com/soulshaping/apologies-to-the-divine-feminine-from-a-warrior-in-transition/

The components of real apologies express the following:

1. A valid acknowledgement that an offense was made and to whom.

2. Expresses remorse and humility and recognizes the suffering that was caused. (ability to feel empathy and compassion)

3. Acknowledges what the offense was, and at he least something about why they did what they did.

4. What they are doing to change their own behavior. (self-responsibility)

5. Some form of reparation, symbolic or real for the perpetrators offense to the person and it may also include reparations to the family, tribe or nation as well. (responsibility to others and their community, because where one is harmed, all are harmed)

 Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes describes the Archetype of Rape: 

" the Archetype of Rape; as an archetype is a universal idea that rises from the unconscious into consciousness and takes hold and carries either great positive or negative numinousity when beheld by some humans, causing them sometimes with huge inflation of ego, to identify with the dark shadow of the archetype, which carries intention and feeling toned ideas, but is not human. If one becomes possessed by such inhuman and dark archtype, it is said psychologically, the person who once was, is no longer:

Read more at http://themoderatevoice.com/170028/the-quaternity-of-raping-women-and-children/#MTsaXDLrYAuSjlbJ.99

She also describes the Cultura Cura, and Predatory rule:

“While much psychology emphasizes the familial causes of angst in humans, the cultural component carries as much weight, for culture is the family of the family. If the family of the family has various sicknesses, then all families within that culture will have to struggle with the same malaises. There is a saying cultura cura, culture cures. If the culture is a healer, the families learn how to heal; they will struggle less, be more reparative, far less wounding, far more graceful and loving. In a culture where the predator rules, all new life needing to be born, all old life needing to be gone, is unable to move and the soul-lives of its citizenry are frozen with both fear and spiritual famine.” 

― Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves: Myths and Stories of the Wild Woman Archetype

So today as a Protector in the ongoing war on wumyn and children that has been waged for more than four thousand years. In this 5th Sun, the new world where everyone is jockeying for the next royal seat at the banquet of money, property and prestige….. let not the suffering of our wumyn and children be the banquet from which you feed, rather generously nourish our wumyn and children.

For our men and masculine principal:

Thank you for your acknowledgement of harm done, and for your apologies.

We are grateful for all your personal and collective work to change the culture of masculinity and what it means to be a divine Man. 

Thank you for loving us and supporting the healing of the divine feminine.

Thank you for your generosity and support to mend our lives in both tangible and intangible ways.

To all Predatory violent behavior:

The feminine principal in Life is the Divine Virgin-Mother-Crone, Mother Earth, and is Caregiver of Life. Because this is how we are made, it is our Birthright, to have say in regard to decisions of war and peace. Therefore you are hereby given notice to cease all violence against us, seek healing and bring honor to the masculine principal of creation.

The feminine principal, is tired of cleaning up after you, healing, changing, hiding, transforming, protecting… we want to see your change and your courage to learn what love is and is not - and take responsibility for your actions by making restorative amends both to the wumyn you have harmed and to Mother Earth. There are no more save-iour-asses, learn to walk your talk.

I met someone once who was the kindest most generous, courageous, honest, loving man anyone could meet. I look for him inside of every man. He would say "Love one another, be kind and generous. Be honest, brave, compassionate, walk gently with Mother Earth not upon her, and honor all wumyn with the same respect". So I ask myself today, 

What would Love do? 

As a Protector and Caregiver, it took me almost all of 2013 to figure out what happened to me in 2012 when i accepted a job offer…and I think every woman should read about what psychopathic predatory behavior is before accepting a job or dating…. https://www.psychopathfree.com/content.php?241-The-Manipulator-s-6-Steps-to-Idealization 

Paleeeze! understand that these types, are very slick… today, am still learning no longer acquiesce my inner authority to determine what is and is not violence, rape, abuse and predatory behaviors. After all - we are Protectors, right?, and maybe one day we will not need experts in the mine-field and operations of violence toward wumyn, children and Mother Earth.

When I hear things like this, i pause:  "We all come from the infinite. Every cell in our body is a universe of it's own. It's intelligent, it's complete, and it's programmed to be what it is. It is perfect."  .... or "everything is love and light, and don't judge" or "just get over it" or "not my responsibility, my ancestors did it, but i didn't"….

Yes we are made perfectly beautiful ! ..and violence is not a "perfect program" and there is a real sickness and "dis-ease" within the culture of humanity … Every dis-ease's origins are interconnected  with our relationship to Her, our Mother Earth, the feminine, and her marriage with Father Sun and Sky…collectively the majority of "western civilized" people are living 

Life out of Balance. 

So with much gratitude, to everyone who are protectors, and caregivers of Life, these qualities are really not genderized, the masculine and feminine have different ways of expressing the characteristics of the Sacred Protector and Caregiver,  for the Greater Good of All Life. We are re-membering this while we heal, change and transform the culture of humanity and protect our Beloved Mother Earth.

From one Protector and Caregiver to another, made of glorious, loving, creative, courageous, Beauty, thank you for listening.

Image found on facebook: 40 Days Focusing on Manifesting New 5D Earth... with all due respect to the artist, if known I would like to give credit where credit is due. 

ama ~ January 3, 2014

Overcomers

Great Mystery is far more omnipresent than "he or she" , and resides in the temple of form's expression to experience Life given to us. May the Life Ways we nourish in our walk in life be the resonance and tonality of Great Mystery's Love and Truth.

I am really liking the astrology reports coming in from our Mayan daykeepers and gregorian astrologers. With gratitude for your insights and knowledge in how our solar tribe family and cosmos inner-relate to our individual and collective unfolding. 

So this is a sharing, may only be my shadow, pain and grief coming out of old wounds. If this be the case so be it, and let healing bring clarity and beauty to where this resides within me. I have often said that every dis-ease's roots that we have are found in our inner and inter relationship with Mother Earth. Mother Earth's Love for her children is profound. She is also our relationship with feminine and every wumyn we are. So, in this sharing i am speaking of Love as Mother Earth and "man" as all humanity, because within us all are predators of willingly adopted and unwilling imposed beliefs that keep us from truly loving and caring for one another…

During the coming nows, may all of us caregive the compassion to be able to hear the truth, educate others, enter into meaningful circles of dialogue and ceremony for healing, for solutions, for the greater good of all life. May we remember that each of us brings a perspective and part to Life's Hoop of Wisdom from the Love and Truth of All that Is that makes us as we are. 

Love met a man once 

who asked her for a stone, 

She gave it to him freely.

Finding stone's beauty profound 

he returned desiring more

and asked her for her soul. 

He asked for her soul

because he did not know his own 

and had become a predator 

always on the roam,

so he offered her all the riches

he had stolen 

in the hope to bargain and win 

a soul that might fill his hunger within

Love refused his riches and trinkets

words of empty promises

so he told Love that she was his muse

and invited her into his lair

in the hope that she would fill his fantasies

and become a soul that would be his pair

when she refused to be a fantasy

an object, a muse

or to become half of her whole

his rage at her refusal became confused

by Love's ever and infinite 

dance mate the

Obsidian Blade of Truth

So he waged a war against love

by poverty, thievery and betrayal

destruction to earth air water

and mis-use of fire

by endless addiction 

to property and prestige as booty 

and the objectification of feminine, 

to feed egoic warrior tales

of muses and fantasy lovers

yet still could not fill the soullessness 

of his empty shell

He tried to go within himself

refashion from his fantasy

a voice in Love's image, 

yet it fell hollow 

within the coffins of all 

that he had plundered

and could not reach the depths

of her Beauty and Presence

that is only found by walking 

in balance and harmony

with and not upon Her 

Love is beholden to no religions

nor is limited by willingly adopted

and unwillingly imposed beliefs

and resides infinitely within

the sacred altar of every wumyn

and man

for Love and Truth in sacred union

are the seeds and trees

of which all life is made

from Great Mystery's infinite

and eternal dance of Creationing

What would Love do? Be the Prayer in Motion.

Thank you Mandisa for this great song that speaks for all the challenges we are all overcoming, be it cancer, rape, aids, diabetes, addictions, stolen lands, loss of culture, colonialism, destruction to the Waters of Life, etc.............

~ ama

December 30th 2013